Saturday, August 23, 2008
The right way to DIE
If you want to suicide.. make sure you'll die.. plan your suicide well... just like this man.
INI SISTEM PENGHANTARAN TERKINI
besi buruk for life.... thinking "now, honey, i'm coming home with a car... you should love me now"
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
aaaah.. hurm.. mo ckp apa aaaa?
kesedihan melanda paku, mereka berdua tunduk terpaku, mengenang nasib yang memaku kehidupan mereka. kesian si paku, mereka kaku x berkata-kata. paku oh paku.
Kehilangan Kepala
kepala ku kepala ku mana? mana? give me idea how magician make part of their body missing. it's probably a mirror trick.
Serious Art Show
haiyaaak!! sumazau bola sepak ini... haaaaaihh!! eeeeeiiih!! syg muka tu serius trlampau.. klu senyum2 sikit br la bole celen sumandak sumazau.
sumazau sumazau.. wah trus rindu kampung oooo
Sebab Pisa Tower Condong.
Pesalah dia telah djumpai.
tolak tolaaaaak lg.. kc condong lg... ya smpai 45degree condong.. tolak tolak.
tolak tolaaaaak lg.. kc condong lg... ya smpai 45degree condong.. tolak tolak.
Cute and Adorable Neotenes.
Neotenes. what is this?
okay... neotenes.... is neotenic is... senang cakap, binatang amfibia yg terbantut tumbesaran dia and kekal macam berudu. ada insang ada kaki empat ada ekor ada sirip. tinggal dalam air. x mempunyai paru2 yg sempurna. teda rahang bertulng.. gigi pun teda.. car makan men hisap2.. slurrrrrp slurrrrrp.. tapi don worry. it's fully grown but it stay like this.
it's smiling it's smiling. cheseee!! caught you on photo. it's smiling!!
tadaaaa... a big big tadpole. hehe.
okay okay.. it's actually do have a name.. it's ajolote.. or axolotl. but i like its japanese name.. the Upa Rupa. direct translated from its american name of wooper rooper. it is a famous pet. so easy to be kept.
and always smiling when you look at it face to face. give you a good warmth welcome when you are back from tiring job.
so here the point. i dont post it just because it is cute and adorable.. and plus.. it's mutant.. now this is the real wild original upa rupa..
it's originally this color or fully black. the one in tan, pinky white, albino one is mutant, genetically altered so it look cute.
so.. the reason i just about to tell you is... this cute adorable always smiling upa rupa is it posess regenerative power. it can regenerate almost all part of it's limb, organ, body. Forget healing by scar. This is replacing your detach arm, missing leg, destroyed brain, adding extra hand, generate lost eye. even transplant other brain, hand, leg, eyes, you name it and restore it to functinality. no mixmatching blood type required. hey that's why they are the scientist's favourite aquatic pet. because it's always smiling, it's also your favourite wannabe pets.
bye2 upa rupa..
okay... neotenes.... is neotenic is... senang cakap, binatang amfibia yg terbantut tumbesaran dia and kekal macam berudu. ada insang ada kaki empat ada ekor ada sirip. tinggal dalam air. x mempunyai paru2 yg sempurna. teda rahang bertulng.. gigi pun teda.. car makan men hisap2.. slurrrrrp slurrrrrp.. tapi don worry. it's fully grown but it stay like this.
it's smiling it's smiling. cheseee!! caught you on photo. it's smiling!!
tadaaaa... a big big tadpole. hehe.
okay okay.. it's actually do have a name.. it's ajolote.. or axolotl. but i like its japanese name.. the Upa Rupa. direct translated from its american name of wooper rooper. it is a famous pet. so easy to be kept.
and always smiling when you look at it face to face. give you a good warmth welcome when you are back from tiring job.
so here the point. i dont post it just because it is cute and adorable.. and plus.. it's mutant.. now this is the real wild original upa rupa..
it's originally this color or fully black. the one in tan, pinky white, albino one is mutant, genetically altered so it look cute.
so.. the reason i just about to tell you is... this cute adorable always smiling upa rupa is it posess regenerative power. it can regenerate almost all part of it's limb, organ, body. Forget healing by scar. This is replacing your detach arm, missing leg, destroyed brain, adding extra hand, generate lost eye. even transplant other brain, hand, leg, eyes, you name it and restore it to functinality. no mixmatching blood type required. hey that's why they are the scientist's favourite aquatic pet. because it's always smiling, it's also your favourite wannabe pets.
bye2 upa rupa..
Ini ialah Ikan. Salam perkenalan.
First kita berkenalan dengan ikan.....
Lamprey Sungai (europian river lamprey)
Di air tawar ada. Di laut pun ada. Di tasik pun ada juga. Ikan ni kerja dia macam lintah, p melekat sm ikan lain, pastu isap darah. slurpppp slurppp. Ada jg yg mkn parasit d kulit ikan. slurpp slurpp. Dia punya stail membiak macam tu ikan salmon, ikut species juga la, banyak species ni ikan lamprey ni. Tp besa dia p laut dulu, merantau2, pastu balik p sungai bertelur. Yang dalam gambar ni, cara dia melekat sm ikan. macam lintah kan?
Taburan habitat dia, di smua kawasan laut cetek eropah, laut mediteranian, smpai ke sungai2 banjaran alps, ada juga d tasik sana Finland, Scotland, and Norway. Ok, sekarang, kita men2 imagine.. bayangkan, kita mandi di sungai.. bez mandi... chupppps!! melekat ni ikan.. ikan ni panjang juga.. more smpai 30cm juga.. chuppps!! melekat.... pa yg akan anda rasakan? Sebab gigi dia ni macam..
gigi ikan lamprey.
jd sapa yang ada kurap2 kaki susah mo hilng.. serahkan la kepada pemakan parasit ni. biar dia kisar eh eheheh.. urhmm melicinkan kaki anda... melicinkan kaki. yeah.
okie dokie... sekarang kita berkenalan lagi sama kazen lamprey.... si hagfish.
Ini Hagfish (slime eel)
aaaa.. yg itu yg kecil punya... yang ni tggl di tengah2 laut baru ada... dan.. beramai2... x keseorangan. n suka masuk bubu. kalau new zealand punya.. bole besar sampai satu meter panjang. owh.. sebab dia dapat nama slime eel ni, sebab bila kn ancam, kn ugut, kn buli, dia mngeluarkan banyak lendir2 mcm hingus, mcm gam uhu, yg bila bercmpur sm air laut trus jadi pekat. eeeeuuuuu.. imajin kan anda kumpul hingus anda sampai satu baldi..itu macam la.. sbb dia ni mcm blut juga, ofcoz la dia licin. owh dia teda rahang tp ada tngkorak. ada gigi lagi. plik lagi tiada tulang belakang. jadi ada agensi and saintis sekarang bergaduh bertikam lidah berbuang2 meja, pensel, mo kategorikan hagfish ni ikan ka bukn ikan. sebab terlampau primitif. mata pun dia teda. pa mo jadi. tapi ahernya, dorg bersatu hati berganding bahu mengkategorikan ikan ni.. sebagai ikan. bukn cacing bukan lintah laut. yg ni x hisap darah. yang ni cara dia makan, masuk dalam isi. Jauh berbeza dari kazen dia lamprey.
tapi dia makan mayat sj.. o dgr creta juga.. mana2 ikan yang nyawa2 ikan.. dia datang mncabut nyawa. so pengajaran jangan buang mayat kita d laut. nanti macam2 bnda masuk dalam perut. ingat.. hagfish ni x sorg2.. beramai2 ni.
ini la mulut dia..
Lamprey Sungai (europian river lamprey)
Di air tawar ada. Di laut pun ada. Di tasik pun ada juga. Ikan ni kerja dia macam lintah, p melekat sm ikan lain, pastu isap darah. slurpppp slurppp. Ada jg yg mkn parasit d kulit ikan. slurpp slurpp. Dia punya stail membiak macam tu ikan salmon, ikut species juga la, banyak species ni ikan lamprey ni. Tp besa dia p laut dulu, merantau2, pastu balik p sungai bertelur. Yang dalam gambar ni, cara dia melekat sm ikan. macam lintah kan?
Taburan habitat dia, di smua kawasan laut cetek eropah, laut mediteranian, smpai ke sungai2 banjaran alps, ada juga d tasik sana Finland, Scotland, and Norway. Ok, sekarang, kita men2 imagine.. bayangkan, kita mandi di sungai.. bez mandi... chupppps!! melekat ni ikan.. ikan ni panjang juga.. more smpai 30cm juga.. chuppps!! melekat.... pa yg akan anda rasakan? Sebab gigi dia ni macam..
gigi ikan lamprey.
jd sapa yang ada kurap2 kaki susah mo hilng.. serahkan la kepada pemakan parasit ni. biar dia kisar eh eheheh.. urhmm melicinkan kaki anda... melicinkan kaki. yeah.
okie dokie... sekarang kita berkenalan lagi sama kazen lamprey.... si hagfish.
Ini Hagfish (slime eel)
aaaa.. yg itu yg kecil punya... yang ni tggl di tengah2 laut baru ada... dan.. beramai2... x keseorangan. n suka masuk bubu. kalau new zealand punya.. bole besar sampai satu meter panjang. owh.. sebab dia dapat nama slime eel ni, sebab bila kn ancam, kn ugut, kn buli, dia mngeluarkan banyak lendir2 mcm hingus, mcm gam uhu, yg bila bercmpur sm air laut trus jadi pekat. eeeeuuuuu.. imajin kan anda kumpul hingus anda sampai satu baldi..itu macam la.. sbb dia ni mcm blut juga, ofcoz la dia licin. owh dia teda rahang tp ada tngkorak. ada gigi lagi. plik lagi tiada tulang belakang. jadi ada agensi and saintis sekarang bergaduh bertikam lidah berbuang2 meja, pensel, mo kategorikan hagfish ni ikan ka bukn ikan. sebab terlampau primitif. mata pun dia teda. pa mo jadi. tapi ahernya, dorg bersatu hati berganding bahu mengkategorikan ikan ni.. sebagai ikan. bukn cacing bukan lintah laut. yg ni x hisap darah. yang ni cara dia makan, masuk dalam isi. Jauh berbeza dari kazen dia lamprey.
tapi dia makan mayat sj.. o dgr creta juga.. mana2 ikan yang nyawa2 ikan.. dia datang mncabut nyawa. so pengajaran jangan buang mayat kita d laut. nanti macam2 bnda masuk dalam perut. ingat.. hagfish ni x sorg2.. beramai2 ni.
ini la mulut dia..
ARGHHH!! APA INI ?
Orang tua2 cakap, kancil ada penunggu dia. Mungkin macam ni kali dia punya rupa. Yang menarik dia punya rambut itu. Style kan? Macam tikus pun ada. Tp apa ka ni? hehe.. anyway anyhow again, susah mo picaya betul ka x. hehe.. but cool to look at.
TARIAN RIANG SANG FLORA
owh ballerina.... owh ballerina... ni la baru org cakap pokok yang cantik.. huahuahua..
DOG STYLE? HUMAN STYLE?
if i show this pic to old or elderly people, they might saying the world is about to end, or they might say that it just a woman have been cursed and become this dog. Perhaps she just kick her parent and god don't like what she done, wallaaaaa, turn her into dog. that's wat they usually think. Different people diffrent interpretation.
dog style human style... juz a wierd doctored thingy thing. anyway..
what do you think?
dog style human style... juz a wierd doctored thingy thing. anyway..
what do you think?
Friday, August 8, 2008
Something to make you WONDER
i come across this article... and i like to share it with you....
James, as usual, came home really late one Saturday night after being at the bar all night drinking. Not only was he drunk, he was sloppy drunk. He carefully crept into bed next his wife, who fell sleep angry hours earlier, and gave her a goodnight kiss on the check in hopes that she wouldn’t wake up.
He awoke in the middle of the night to a strange man standing at the end of his bed wearing a long flowing white robe. “Who the hell are you,” demanded James, “and what are you doing in my bedroom?” The mysterious man answered “This is not your bedroom, and my name is St. Peter”.
James didn’t take the news so well… “You mean I’m dead! That can’t be, I have so much to live for, I haven’t even said goodbye to my family… you’ve got to send me back right away!”
St. Peter replied “You cannot go back as you were, you have passed away James. However, you can be reincarnated - but there is a catch. We can only send you back as a dog or a hen.” James was devastated, but knowing that there was a farm just down the road from his house, he asked to be sent back as a hen.
A flash of light later, he was covered in feathers and clucking around pecking at corn on the ground. “This ain’t so bad,” he thought until he felt a strange feeling churning inside him. The farmyard rooster strolled over and said “So you’re the new hen, huh? How are you enjoying your first day here?” “It’s not so bad” replies James, “but I have this strange feeling inside like I’m about to explode”. “You’re ovulating” explained the rooster, “haven’t you ever laid an egg before?”
“Never” replies James.
“Well just relax and let it happen.”
And so he did, and just a few uncomfortable seconds later an egg pops out from under his tail. An immense feeling of relief swept over him - emotions got the better of him as he experienced the joy motherhood for the first time. When he laid his second egg, the feeling of happiness was overwhelming and he knew that being reincarnated as a hen was the best thing that ever happened to him… ever!
The joy of motherhood continued to build and, just as he was just about to lay his third egg, he felt an enormous smack on the back of his head and heard his wife shout “James, wake up you drunken bas*ard, you’re sh*tting the bed!”
what do you think?
James, as usual, came home really late one Saturday night after being at the bar all night drinking. Not only was he drunk, he was sloppy drunk. He carefully crept into bed next his wife, who fell sleep angry hours earlier, and gave her a goodnight kiss on the check in hopes that she wouldn’t wake up.
He awoke in the middle of the night to a strange man standing at the end of his bed wearing a long flowing white robe. “Who the hell are you,” demanded James, “and what are you doing in my bedroom?” The mysterious man answered “This is not your bedroom, and my name is St. Peter”.
James didn’t take the news so well… “You mean I’m dead! That can’t be, I have so much to live for, I haven’t even said goodbye to my family… you’ve got to send me back right away!”
St. Peter replied “You cannot go back as you were, you have passed away James. However, you can be reincarnated - but there is a catch. We can only send you back as a dog or a hen.” James was devastated, but knowing that there was a farm just down the road from his house, he asked to be sent back as a hen.
A flash of light later, he was covered in feathers and clucking around pecking at corn on the ground. “This ain’t so bad,” he thought until he felt a strange feeling churning inside him. The farmyard rooster strolled over and said “So you’re the new hen, huh? How are you enjoying your first day here?” “It’s not so bad” replies James, “but I have this strange feeling inside like I’m about to explode”. “You’re ovulating” explained the rooster, “haven’t you ever laid an egg before?”
“Never” replies James.
“Well just relax and let it happen.”
And so he did, and just a few uncomfortable seconds later an egg pops out from under his tail. An immense feeling of relief swept over him - emotions got the better of him as he experienced the joy motherhood for the first time. When he laid his second egg, the feeling of happiness was overwhelming and he knew that being reincarnated as a hen was the best thing that ever happened to him… ever!
The joy of motherhood continued to build and, just as he was just about to lay his third egg, he felt an enormous smack on the back of his head and heard his wife shout “James, wake up you drunken bas*ard, you’re sh*tting the bed!”
what do you think?
Friday, August 1, 2008
coretan dari minda: panggung wayang
panggung panggung.... besa la itu kan... movie best kita masuk.. join ramai bersama2 member.. merasai impak sound efek ... tmbah lagi skrin besar rumah.. naaaah... memang layan...
so dijadikn pngalaman biasa ni... luar biasa...
dalam kiraan 3 2 1... tenangkan pikiran anda.. pikiran saya.. pikiran kamu d sana...
skrg... pernah kah.. kamu, ko, anda, dikau trpikir.. ever wondered.... you and your friend.. berpusu2 p bli tiket wayang... plan mo tgk itu cerita box office tyme tu.. yg hangat org prkatakan.. yg bez... pastu kn.. ko mo masuk dlm panggung... sm member2... tp... skali ko masuk.. ko seorang sj yg masuk.. cuba bygkn...
suasana.. mcm dlm panggung... yg herannya.. sepatutnya.. kwn ko ada kiri kanan.. tp.. melngkah ja masuk dlm tu panggung... ko sorang2 sj.. cuba bayangkn..
again and again.... ko trpikir kn.. trntanya2.. mn dorg mnghilng... tp.. ko x risau.. sbb dlm panggung tu.. ada pnonton lain lg.. ramai... kwn ko sj yg hilng enth p mn...mingkin sesat.. trpisah sbb rmai org kn.. lampu sda d pdmkn... movie sda mo start... ko p tmpt duduk ko...
klu ko mcm ak... anda mcm saya... ak duduk la smbil minum2.. mkn pop corn sikit.. movie mo mula sda ni.. pop!! lampu padam... start sunyi... then... movie start... bila movie start.. suasana jd kelam.. sbb cahaya datang dr skrin sj kn... smpai start skrin.. yg bg tau syarikat filem... universal studio.... pastu.. muvi start sot sot.. mcm tv yg mo hilng siaran.. kabur2.. bzzzzzz bzzzzz...
dalam bunyi bzzzz bzzzz tu.. ko rs.. pelik.. sunyi... besanya mmg ada sda org yg panas ni.. tp ni sunyi.. ko prhatikn sekeliling.. btul2 memerhati.. org rmi2 td.. sda teda.. tggl la sekelompok org.. dlm 15 org mcm tu.. duduk berjauhan antara satu sm lain..... bzzzzz bzzzzzz bzzzzzz.. bunyi bzzzzz smkin lm smakin hilng... pap! pap!.. movie sda on d skrin.. tp.. ko prsan.. ko tingk.. movie old school.. gmbr hitam putih..
brgkali dorg tukar movie.. sbb filem movie td rosak.. sapa tau.. itu yg ko pikir2 dlm kepala.. ko rasa2.. belum smpt ko mnamatkn pemikiran td.. ko dgr bunyi yg kurng mnyenangkan.. sound sistem rosak ka pa? mkin lama mkin kuat.. bunyi dr movie tgglam... bunyi mcm perempuan menangis.. mengeluh.. uuuuuuh uuuuuuuh isk isk uuuuhhhhh uhhhh.. ko rs.. sblh ko.. mcm ada hmbusan nafas.. tp sejuk.. bila ko palingkn muka.. ko menatap seorg prmpuan.. yg pnjang rmbutnya.. mnutup mukanya.. smakin dekat dgn ko.. dahinya hmpir mnyntuh dahi mu.. smakin lm smakin dekat..
bunyi keluhn smakin kuat...
tangisan smkin mnjadi2...
tp.. mungkin wanita ni.. br break up.. mungkin dia perlukn teman.. ak tau.. ko pikir mungkin dia ni.. sesuatu yg paranormal.. tp.. ko msih ingin tahu.. siapa dia.. knpa dia mngis.. mungkin itu sifat manusia.. suka ambil tahu.. ko tnya dia.. ermm.. ko ok ka? knp ko mngis?
tgisn nya prlhn... bgitu juga dgn keluhnnya... mungkin dia mula merasa tenang.. namun.. blum smpat ko menarik nafas lega.. ko dgr tngisan .. dan keluhn.. tp.. sayup kedgrn.. ko pasti .. tangisn yg ko dgr.. keluhn yg ko dgr bukn dr gadis yg berada d dpn ko.. ko pasti.. ko cba mngesan dr mn bunyi itu dtg... smakin lama.. smakin bergema.. smakin lm smakin ramai.. bukn satu org.. ko paling kn muka ko.. dr menatap si gadis td.. ko tinjau2kn kepala ko.. dn ko lihat.. dlm 15 org penonton td.. semuanya berdiri.. berjln.. menuju ke arah ko.. pergerakan mereka trsekat2.. bahu mereka trangkat2.. menangis.. kepala mereka tunduk.. ko x dpt lihat muka mereka..
zap!! si gadis d sblh ko.. memeluk erat tgn ko.. ooh.. mungkin dia juga ketakutan.. xpa.. atleast ak x keseorangan.. pelukn dia smakin erat.. ko pun bingkas berdiri.. cepat brdiri.. menarik gadis itu untuk berdiri sm.. smbil otak ko ligat mncr jln kluar.. ko prsn gadis td.. tggi paras bahu ko sj.. then ko tenung dia.. sbb dia juga mula menangis.. isk isk isk.. dia dongakn kepala dia.. untuk menatap wajah ko.. lalu.. rambut2 yg menutup wajahnya trurai .. tp.. ko trkejut.. gadis yg ko tenung.. ko tatap wajahnya skrg.. d sebalik rmbut yg menutup wajahnya itu.. x ada mulut, mata, mahu pun hidung kening.. hanya kulit........ tp tangisan nya smakin jelas.. pelukn nya smakin erat.. bgitu juga dgn 15 org yg smakin mnghampiri ko td...
sound sistem juga turut mngeluarkn bunyi tangisan... dan keluhan...
apa kah yg akan anda lakukan.. apa yg bakal trjadi? gunalah imaginasi anda
sekian.. coretan dari minda... selamata malam............
so dijadikn pngalaman biasa ni... luar biasa...
dalam kiraan 3 2 1... tenangkan pikiran anda.. pikiran saya.. pikiran kamu d sana...
skrg... pernah kah.. kamu, ko, anda, dikau trpikir.. ever wondered.... you and your friend.. berpusu2 p bli tiket wayang... plan mo tgk itu cerita box office tyme tu.. yg hangat org prkatakan.. yg bez... pastu kn.. ko mo masuk dlm panggung... sm member2... tp... skali ko masuk.. ko seorang sj yg masuk.. cuba bygkn...
suasana.. mcm dlm panggung... yg herannya.. sepatutnya.. kwn ko ada kiri kanan.. tp.. melngkah ja masuk dlm tu panggung... ko sorang2 sj.. cuba bayangkn..
again and again.... ko trpikir kn.. trntanya2.. mn dorg mnghilng... tp.. ko x risau.. sbb dlm panggung tu.. ada pnonton lain lg.. ramai... kwn ko sj yg hilng enth p mn...mingkin sesat.. trpisah sbb rmai org kn.. lampu sda d pdmkn... movie sda mo start... ko p tmpt duduk ko...
klu ko mcm ak... anda mcm saya... ak duduk la smbil minum2.. mkn pop corn sikit.. movie mo mula sda ni.. pop!! lampu padam... start sunyi... then... movie start... bila movie start.. suasana jd kelam.. sbb cahaya datang dr skrin sj kn... smpai start skrin.. yg bg tau syarikat filem... universal studio.... pastu.. muvi start sot sot.. mcm tv yg mo hilng siaran.. kabur2.. bzzzzzz bzzzzz...
dalam bunyi bzzzz bzzzz tu.. ko rs.. pelik.. sunyi... besanya mmg ada sda org yg panas ni.. tp ni sunyi.. ko prhatikn sekeliling.. btul2 memerhati.. org rmi2 td.. sda teda.. tggl la sekelompok org.. dlm 15 org mcm tu.. duduk berjauhan antara satu sm lain..... bzzzzz bzzzzzz bzzzzzz.. bunyi bzzzzz smkin lm smakin hilng... pap! pap!.. movie sda on d skrin.. tp.. ko prsan.. ko tingk.. movie old school.. gmbr hitam putih..
brgkali dorg tukar movie.. sbb filem movie td rosak.. sapa tau.. itu yg ko pikir2 dlm kepala.. ko rasa2.. belum smpt ko mnamatkn pemikiran td.. ko dgr bunyi yg kurng mnyenangkan.. sound sistem rosak ka pa? mkin lama mkin kuat.. bunyi dr movie tgglam... bunyi mcm perempuan menangis.. mengeluh.. uuuuuuh uuuuuuuh isk isk uuuuhhhhh uhhhh.. ko rs.. sblh ko.. mcm ada hmbusan nafas.. tp sejuk.. bila ko palingkn muka.. ko menatap seorg prmpuan.. yg pnjang rmbutnya.. mnutup mukanya.. smakin dekat dgn ko.. dahinya hmpir mnyntuh dahi mu.. smakin lm smakin dekat..
bunyi keluhn smakin kuat...
tangisan smkin mnjadi2...
tp.. mungkin wanita ni.. br break up.. mungkin dia perlukn teman.. ak tau.. ko pikir mungkin dia ni.. sesuatu yg paranormal.. tp.. ko msih ingin tahu.. siapa dia.. knpa dia mngis.. mungkin itu sifat manusia.. suka ambil tahu.. ko tnya dia.. ermm.. ko ok ka? knp ko mngis?
tgisn nya prlhn... bgitu juga dgn keluhnnya... mungkin dia mula merasa tenang.. namun.. blum smpat ko menarik nafas lega.. ko dgr tngisan .. dan keluhn.. tp.. sayup kedgrn.. ko pasti .. tangisn yg ko dgr.. keluhn yg ko dgr bukn dr gadis yg berada d dpn ko.. ko pasti.. ko cba mngesan dr mn bunyi itu dtg... smakin lama.. smakin bergema.. smakin lm smakin ramai.. bukn satu org.. ko paling kn muka ko.. dr menatap si gadis td.. ko tinjau2kn kepala ko.. dn ko lihat.. dlm 15 org penonton td.. semuanya berdiri.. berjln.. menuju ke arah ko.. pergerakan mereka trsekat2.. bahu mereka trangkat2.. menangis.. kepala mereka tunduk.. ko x dpt lihat muka mereka..
zap!! si gadis d sblh ko.. memeluk erat tgn ko.. ooh.. mungkin dia juga ketakutan.. xpa.. atleast ak x keseorangan.. pelukn dia smakin erat.. ko pun bingkas berdiri.. cepat brdiri.. menarik gadis itu untuk berdiri sm.. smbil otak ko ligat mncr jln kluar.. ko prsn gadis td.. tggi paras bahu ko sj.. then ko tenung dia.. sbb dia juga mula menangis.. isk isk isk.. dia dongakn kepala dia.. untuk menatap wajah ko.. lalu.. rambut2 yg menutup wajahnya trurai .. tp.. ko trkejut.. gadis yg ko tenung.. ko tatap wajahnya skrg.. d sebalik rmbut yg menutup wajahnya itu.. x ada mulut, mata, mahu pun hidung kening.. hanya kulit........ tp tangisan nya smakin jelas.. pelukn nya smakin erat.. bgitu juga dgn 15 org yg smakin mnghampiri ko td...
sound sistem juga turut mngeluarkn bunyi tangisan... dan keluhan...
apa kah yg akan anda lakukan.. apa yg bakal trjadi? gunalah imaginasi anda
sekian.. coretan dari minda... selamata malam............
Monday, July 28, 2008
apa skrg yg patut ak lakukan
merujuk kepada pekara di atas... (sila la rujuk butul2) persoalan lalu timbul dr tenggelam..
apa yg patut ak lakukan sekarang... sekarang.. jarum jam yg pnjang2 itu.. sda pun brputar-putar..
melaungkan numbur 11... manakala.. jarum jam yg plg gumuk lg ketot itu.. beteriak2.. sekarang pukul 3...
ak pula... sda cuba untuk tidak teriak atau berbuat bising dalam susun atur ayat BM yg betul... agar.. rakan2 ku x terkejut lalu tr gulik jatuh masuk bawah katil.. sbb.. sda akhir...
jd.. bg mnjawab persoalan bonus td.. apa yg patut ak lakukan skrg ialah...
tidur.... one more time? wat shud i do now? sleep.. yeah.. you are very right..
sebelum ak tidur ni. akan ku cuba akhiri la... penulisan ak yg x ada mkna ni.. dgn sedikit puisi yg mungkin.. dalam maknanya..
"jika ak kuntum bunga...
yg ku ketahui tiada mekarnya..
yg ku ketahui tiada kelopak yg bakal trbuka..
apakah ada mkna
hidupku..
jika ak truskn jua?
sekilas fikir akal ku tajamkan
seimbas pandang ak alihkan
ku alu-alukan rasional dlm perlakuan
ku integrasikan positive dalam penakulan
nyata hidup ku..
wlu hanya kuntum tnpa masa depan
lebih baik dr lansung x melihat dunia
berlalunya awan...
brubahnya langit..
menyapanya bayu..
buat lentok ku kiri ke kanan
xkira btapa sukarnya..
nyata hidup sentiasa bermakna...
tadaaaaaaa......sm2 kita renungkan... mngetahui apa yg bakal trjadi.. bukn sesuatu yg indah...
sebab sampai satu saat.. kita tahu.. tp.. kita x dpt mngubahnya... cermin2 kan la... pinjam cermin member.. cermin2... klu ada yg pki bedak sejuk... tolongla jgn bercermin.. nnt retak berjuta merekah tak terkira cermin member... tp yakin pd diri anda... kalau ko rasa ko tua.. tua la itu.. kalau muda.. antara dua la itu.. x sedar diri atau perasan muda... sekian... bersambung di idea akan datang
apa yg patut ak lakukan sekarang... sekarang.. jarum jam yg pnjang2 itu.. sda pun brputar-putar..
melaungkan numbur 11... manakala.. jarum jam yg plg gumuk lg ketot itu.. beteriak2.. sekarang pukul 3...
ak pula... sda cuba untuk tidak teriak atau berbuat bising dalam susun atur ayat BM yg betul... agar.. rakan2 ku x terkejut lalu tr gulik jatuh masuk bawah katil.. sbb.. sda akhir...
jd.. bg mnjawab persoalan bonus td.. apa yg patut ak lakukan skrg ialah...
tidur.... one more time? wat shud i do now? sleep.. yeah.. you are very right..
sebelum ak tidur ni. akan ku cuba akhiri la... penulisan ak yg x ada mkna ni.. dgn sedikit puisi yg mungkin.. dalam maknanya..
"jika ak kuntum bunga...
yg ku ketahui tiada mekarnya..
yg ku ketahui tiada kelopak yg bakal trbuka..
apakah ada mkna
hidupku..
jika ak truskn jua?
sekilas fikir akal ku tajamkan
seimbas pandang ak alihkan
ku alu-alukan rasional dlm perlakuan
ku integrasikan positive dalam penakulan
nyata hidup ku..
wlu hanya kuntum tnpa masa depan
lebih baik dr lansung x melihat dunia
berlalunya awan...
brubahnya langit..
menyapanya bayu..
buat lentok ku kiri ke kanan
xkira btapa sukarnya..
nyata hidup sentiasa bermakna...
tadaaaaaaa......sm2 kita renungkan... mngetahui apa yg bakal trjadi.. bukn sesuatu yg indah...
sebab sampai satu saat.. kita tahu.. tp.. kita x dpt mngubahnya... cermin2 kan la... pinjam cermin member.. cermin2... klu ada yg pki bedak sejuk... tolongla jgn bercermin.. nnt retak berjuta merekah tak terkira cermin member... tp yakin pd diri anda... kalau ko rasa ko tua.. tua la itu.. kalau muda.. antara dua la itu.. x sedar diri atau perasan muda... sekian... bersambung di idea akan datang
Sunday, July 27, 2008
oooopsss.. ak blum puas lagi
stop stop.. jgn lari dlu.. jgn opline dulu... blum ms lg.. ya ak tau.. masa mncemburui kamu.. sm juga.. mc cmburu sm ak juga.. jd kita ni senasib...
bila ak menaip2 naip2.... ni kn.. pastu ada org baca kn.. ak rasa2 la.. mo juga .. hurm.. xtau la.. klu ada org baca.. tp.. ada juga la yg suru ak bljr mengeja blk.. sbb mngeja fail kn.. well.. style ba itu.. xda pa2 juga.. jnji dpt baca.. kn kn kn? salah eja sikit sj... ya ok! byk sikit..
ok.. lm juga ak nda lepak2 d blog ni.. duluuuuu.. ak buat blog ni.. untuk buat mcm diari... setiap isi.. ada kehidupn ak d rakam kn la sikit2 di sini... supaya.. mn tau.. klu2 ada pmbunuh upahan bunuh ak.. atau.. ak p mnyelmtkn org. pastu ak trkorban.. ececeh.. then dorg buka blog ni.. ambil2 sikit2 buat buku pasal ak.. hahahaha.. well itu angan2 ak la.. bez kan angan2 ak..
hurm... tp ak boring juga mnulis bnda serius.. tmbh lg ak ni sll migrn.. jd kpla ak ni ada ketidak btuln sda sikit.. serius sll is not the way of life... being crazy is my way of life.. one of my way la.. bukn senantiasa gila.. nnt btul2 gila.. mati ak teda org mo kawin.. org gila pun x sggp kawin sm ak.. jauh2 palis2..
owh ya.. ak ada ambil personaliti test kn baru2 ni.. so result yg ak dpt kan.. dorg ckp.. i got criminal mind.. hahahaha.. jd.. klu ak jd pnjht.. mst ak jd pnjht yg hebat kn? hehehe. hurm.. mnjd pnjahat kls pertama.. pnjht yg hnya mnjahati pnjahat2 lain.. cool.. so pnjht2.. bersediala untuk djahati.. jgn risau. ak memang jahat... tp ak x kejam.. ak bertimbang rasa..
skrg ni ak on the way mo baik dr demam ni... dr hari jumaat lg..ak dmm.. cuba bygkn.. brp lm ak dmm tu.. brp saat? dr jumaat smpai skrg? uinaaa.. punya men lama... owh ya..kawan ak yg sm2 ak dmm.. sm waktu tarikh dan saat.. dia pla baik lg awal dr ak.. aiyo.. nmpk la ak punya dmm ni lg degil dr dmm org lain..ui .. for your information... xda mslh sm antibodi ak aaa.. antibodi ak ok.. sihat.. ada wawasan..
tp rasa2 mcm mo dmm sj blk oo... kn hntm migrn kn td.. br sj mo baik trus migrn dtg.. hui naa.. mcm kn combo street fighter.. tup tap tup tap.. trus.. x dpt bgn2...
chop!!! cut!!! bersmbung di kala idea akn dtg.... mulakan hari anda dgn senyuman.. mn tau nnt ad ayg dtg meminang.. wakakakaka.. brg kali ak yg datang? hahaah
bila ak menaip2 naip2.... ni kn.. pastu ada org baca kn.. ak rasa2 la.. mo juga .. hurm.. xtau la.. klu ada org baca.. tp.. ada juga la yg suru ak bljr mengeja blk.. sbb mngeja fail kn.. well.. style ba itu.. xda pa2 juga.. jnji dpt baca.. kn kn kn? salah eja sikit sj... ya ok! byk sikit..
ok.. lm juga ak nda lepak2 d blog ni.. duluuuuu.. ak buat blog ni.. untuk buat mcm diari... setiap isi.. ada kehidupn ak d rakam kn la sikit2 di sini... supaya.. mn tau.. klu2 ada pmbunuh upahan bunuh ak.. atau.. ak p mnyelmtkn org. pastu ak trkorban.. ececeh.. then dorg buka blog ni.. ambil2 sikit2 buat buku pasal ak.. hahahaha.. well itu angan2 ak la.. bez kan angan2 ak..
hurm... tp ak boring juga mnulis bnda serius.. tmbh lg ak ni sll migrn.. jd kpla ak ni ada ketidak btuln sda sikit.. serius sll is not the way of life... being crazy is my way of life.. one of my way la.. bukn senantiasa gila.. nnt btul2 gila.. mati ak teda org mo kawin.. org gila pun x sggp kawin sm ak.. jauh2 palis2..
owh ya.. ak ada ambil personaliti test kn baru2 ni.. so result yg ak dpt kan.. dorg ckp.. i got criminal mind.. hahahaha.. jd.. klu ak jd pnjht.. mst ak jd pnjht yg hebat kn? hehehe. hurm.. mnjd pnjahat kls pertama.. pnjht yg hnya mnjahati pnjahat2 lain.. cool.. so pnjht2.. bersediala untuk djahati.. jgn risau. ak memang jahat... tp ak x kejam.. ak bertimbang rasa..
skrg ni ak on the way mo baik dr demam ni... dr hari jumaat lg..ak dmm.. cuba bygkn.. brp lm ak dmm tu.. brp saat? dr jumaat smpai skrg? uinaaa.. punya men lama... owh ya..kawan ak yg sm2 ak dmm.. sm waktu tarikh dan saat.. dia pla baik lg awal dr ak.. aiyo.. nmpk la ak punya dmm ni lg degil dr dmm org lain..ui .. for your information... xda mslh sm antibodi ak aaa.. antibodi ak ok.. sihat.. ada wawasan..
tp rasa2 mcm mo dmm sj blk oo... kn hntm migrn kn td.. br sj mo baik trus migrn dtg.. hui naa.. mcm kn combo street fighter.. tup tap tup tap.. trus.. x dpt bgn2...
chop!!! cut!!! bersmbung di kala idea akn dtg.... mulakan hari anda dgn senyuman.. mn tau nnt ad ayg dtg meminang.. wakakakaka.. brg kali ak yg datang? hahaah
bim bim booo... me back.. without seriousity
flip flop flip flop
i open the news...
and.... nothing new...
walalalala... sekarang ni demam2.. tp ok2 juga... so besa la org demam.. klu ckp ok.. mcm mnipu... klu ckp x ok... mcm mo mati.. tp... so far so good... so.. conclusion... skrg ni... hidup is interesting..
yup... hidup is interesting.. tp kadang2 sj... bukn slalu..
owh ya... mcm besa.. dunia berpusing2... siang tukar malam.. malam tukar siang blk.. kita mkin lm mkin tua... tp x juga rs tua2.. tgk d cermin mcm masi muda.. besa la itu.. lumrah hidup..
so far... ak pun malas juga la ... malas mo mnulis blog ni.. tp besanya.. bila jari2 comel ni.. che.. ayat x sedar diri kluar lg... ok la.. hantam sj la.. jari2 comel ni menaip dikala ak buring2 ni.. ada sj idea untuk mncarut..
so.. ak akn mneruskn la aktiviti mulia ni.. untuk mncarut smbil2 meletakkan sikit sedikit la.. kata2 hikmah.. ecececeh.. supaya bole d bw berpikir klu sda xda bnda untuk d pikir2 lg.. maklum la... pikir psl harga minyk boring sda.. pikir pasal harga beras boring juga... pikir psl duit jd kaya kawin empat lepas cerai 10 pun boring sda.. naaa kau.. mari kita pikir2 ni.. kata2
"to be vulnerable is to be woundable"
setelah merujuk kepada nenek ak yg pakar menranslate ayat.. dia ckp... itu bermksud.. "mnjadi mudah pecah... ialah sm juga jd mudah di lukai" ..
so mari kita pikir2 la.. apa yg btul.. apa yg kurang btul.. apa yg x btul.. or yg btul tp.. kita krs kpls mo menidak betulkn pkra yg nyata lg bersuluh ni.. apa yg betul ialah... bila kita lemah. or kita r skita lemah... mudah sj la kita ni.. untuk... terasa di sakiti... pastu sakit... terluka..
kalau2 bab relationship ni...org suka la dgr sikit.. apa itu... bila si hati seorg ni... x kuat.. rapuh.. mudh terasa.. org sntuh.. trus koyak trcalar empat.. putus2 mcm org potong timun buat acar.. sikijap sj terluka la dia.. itu mcm la tu.. jd.. kesimpulannya.. awal2 la ak simpulkn sbb malas lg mo mngulas pnjg nnt abis idea.. susa.. jd.. sm2 la kita kuatkn hati ni.. supaya lg tabah.. lagi mantap untuk mngharungi onak duri tmbok pnjara, barb wire, lopak lumpur, lungkang parit kehidupn.. supaya.. kita hidup.. hidup puas hati..
itu sj.. sehingga idea mncarut seterusnya... cermin2 la diri anda.. percaya anda masih memikat.. yeah
i open the news...
and.... nothing new...
walalalala... sekarang ni demam2.. tp ok2 juga... so besa la org demam.. klu ckp ok.. mcm mnipu... klu ckp x ok... mcm mo mati.. tp... so far so good... so.. conclusion... skrg ni... hidup is interesting..
yup... hidup is interesting.. tp kadang2 sj... bukn slalu..
owh ya... mcm besa.. dunia berpusing2... siang tukar malam.. malam tukar siang blk.. kita mkin lm mkin tua... tp x juga rs tua2.. tgk d cermin mcm masi muda.. besa la itu.. lumrah hidup..
so far... ak pun malas juga la ... malas mo mnulis blog ni.. tp besanya.. bila jari2 comel ni.. che.. ayat x sedar diri kluar lg... ok la.. hantam sj la.. jari2 comel ni menaip dikala ak buring2 ni.. ada sj idea untuk mncarut..
so.. ak akn mneruskn la aktiviti mulia ni.. untuk mncarut smbil2 meletakkan sikit sedikit la.. kata2 hikmah.. ecececeh.. supaya bole d bw berpikir klu sda xda bnda untuk d pikir2 lg.. maklum la... pikir psl harga minyk boring sda.. pikir pasal harga beras boring juga... pikir psl duit jd kaya kawin empat lepas cerai 10 pun boring sda.. naaa kau.. mari kita pikir2 ni.. kata2
"to be vulnerable is to be woundable"
setelah merujuk kepada nenek ak yg pakar menranslate ayat.. dia ckp... itu bermksud.. "mnjadi mudah pecah... ialah sm juga jd mudah di lukai" ..
so mari kita pikir2 la.. apa yg btul.. apa yg kurang btul.. apa yg x btul.. or yg btul tp.. kita krs kpls mo menidak betulkn pkra yg nyata lg bersuluh ni.. apa yg betul ialah... bila kita lemah. or kita r skita lemah... mudah sj la kita ni.. untuk... terasa di sakiti... pastu sakit... terluka..
kalau2 bab relationship ni...org suka la dgr sikit.. apa itu... bila si hati seorg ni... x kuat.. rapuh.. mudh terasa.. org sntuh.. trus koyak trcalar empat.. putus2 mcm org potong timun buat acar.. sikijap sj terluka la dia.. itu mcm la tu.. jd.. kesimpulannya.. awal2 la ak simpulkn sbb malas lg mo mngulas pnjg nnt abis idea.. susa.. jd.. sm2 la kita kuatkn hati ni.. supaya lg tabah.. lagi mantap untuk mngharungi onak duri tmbok pnjara, barb wire, lopak lumpur, lungkang parit kehidupn.. supaya.. kita hidup.. hidup puas hati..
itu sj.. sehingga idea mncarut seterusnya... cermin2 la diri anda.. percaya anda masih memikat.. yeah
Monday, May 5, 2008
6 May 2008 : evening....
a day to remember...
a day to remember...
a day to remember...
it's today....... maybe this the thrill i seek for... the up and down of life.. maybe I've complain to much on how plain my life is before... and keep motivating myself.. that.. no matter how plain my life is.. it's always interesting.... and today... it's different... how can i describe it? is it dark.... is it sunshine... is it weird... is it silly... is it.... bad... one thing to be sure.. it's ain't plain anymore.. nope.. it just.. something that bad.. yet good in the same time...
~today~
"what today bring for tomorrow?
what today be for yesterday?
sometime it's something that simply neglected..
and sometime... something to remember...
what it bring for tomorrow?
clear future? or blur path?
smile? or relief?
what would it be for yesterday?
sweetest memory...or painful experience?
or make your time stop?
today... only one thing is
in absolute certainty..
it won't be same...
be same with the other day..
no matter how ordinary it is..
it won't be the same...
it just unique.. yet how amazing
how amazing that.. it's just so ordinary..
but isn't this ordinary characteristic
make it special?
and because it special.. it's unique..
unique to each person."
can success mix with failure... can it occur in the same time.. if you put it in others view.. it can exist in the same time... lets say for a football... there's always a miss shot to the goal.. yet.. there's also winning... and losing team.. but to people who experience it themselves.. not reaching the target.. or simply letting down people's hope... is the greatest failure... i realize it now.. because today.. it just happen to me..
it just ordinary routine which always ended with success.. but.. contrary during the time for test.. it just when wrong.. i couldn't blame the external reason for it.. i couldn't blame the surrounding..
since others companion also in the same situation.. blaming is only a reason to justify thing.. and make myself a little comfortable.. deep inside.. it's clear when you're fail.. you fail.. that's no doubt about it... and why I'm the one who taste the taste of failure.. is just simply because .. i am the chosen one to carry a bad luck for today.. and seeing others pass.. bring me some joy.. at least.. others feel happy... he he.. but the fact is... in such a way of success.. there's always a room for failure.. it's something impossible to separate.. in that matter.. it might cause a debt to someone which equal to a guilt inside him..
thank god.. thanks... for the chance you gave.. it's a hard success.. yet.. success is success... but this success is not something i can celebrate..
because it summon a guilt.. it summon.. a debt... for me to put a burden to someone...
for me to cause such unreasonable act.. this feeling is not easy to erase.... it is a big as my sense of gratitude... thanks again.. because there are good peoples who care for this bad bad boy.. thanks god.. thanks.. buddy... thanks friend...
~success~
is it a success..
when it's only a letters jot on the paper
is it a success when it's only a certificate
when it come to the real deal..
you won't make it...
you're not qualify..
although black and white proved otherwise..
you know it yourself..
better than anyone else..
success doesn't need black and white.
it doesn't need proved..
it just need you..
you try your best.. that's a success..
you know you can do it... that's a success
you confident you can make it.. that's a success
you never give up.. that's a success..
you want to improve.. that's a success..
and.. by holding to this word..
i wont look back anymore..
we must move on..
to be more successful than before"
why today is the the day to remember.. because today.. my long plain life gain a roller coaster track.. it's up and down.. and it's more interesting than ever... because a failure... i achieved a success.. and to know that.. there are good people all around me... make me feel how lucky i am to live in this world.. and for their sake... i will do my best to return their favour and for... me... move on... march on... being stuck in this spot wont bring you out from guilt...
it'll buried you with darkness.. look at the bright side.. and smile for the gift that god gave you..
smile for the truth.. smile for the fact that.. each day is a new experience..
in this post.. i want to say thanks to these people.....
Abg Azam, for all the thing.. you help me a lot.. i don't know how to repay you... only god can do that.. and i pray to god.. i hope i can return you the favour.. you are the greatest person i ever made.. thanks
Kak Nora... thanks.. you teah me a lot... and sorry.. i let you down.. i'm ashame of myself... thank for the comitment... the dedication... the spirit... the knowledge... the mumbling hahaha... the fun.. thanks..
PakCik Tukang kebun...Mr Gardener.. sorry my dear sir.. i don't know your name.. but there are a lot of useful advice you gave me.... thanks for the counsel.. you increase my moral after superb falling down..
thanks...
Pakcik Orang Brunei.. since he look like brunei people.. and sorry don't know his name.. thanks.. you bring me back from sorrow... it just good to look on the bright side... and thanks for your advice.. it's give me courage to fight the nervous...
to my buddy Khyru and Najib... you doing great today.. i'm happy for you.. seriously and sincerely.. i do... thanks for being here with me today... you guys cheer me up.. thanks buddy....
hahahaha... hey holiday wait dude.. lets go home... next sem? how about each of us rent a car.. and i race you to Pekan.. hey remember the speed limits.. don't go far beyond 60km/h.. ha ha..
thanks everyone... i owe you much... you are the greatest...
a day to remember...
a day to remember...
it's today....... maybe this the thrill i seek for... the up and down of life.. maybe I've complain to much on how plain my life is before... and keep motivating myself.. that.. no matter how plain my life is.. it's always interesting.... and today... it's different... how can i describe it? is it dark.... is it sunshine... is it weird... is it silly... is it.... bad... one thing to be sure.. it's ain't plain anymore.. nope.. it just.. something that bad.. yet good in the same time...
~today~
"what today bring for tomorrow?
what today be for yesterday?
sometime it's something that simply neglected..
and sometime... something to remember...
what it bring for tomorrow?
clear future? or blur path?
smile? or relief?
what would it be for yesterday?
sweetest memory...or painful experience?
or make your time stop?
today... only one thing is
in absolute certainty..
it won't be same...
be same with the other day..
no matter how ordinary it is..
it won't be the same...
it just unique.. yet how amazing
how amazing that.. it's just so ordinary..
but isn't this ordinary characteristic
make it special?
and because it special.. it's unique..
unique to each person."
can success mix with failure... can it occur in the same time.. if you put it in others view.. it can exist in the same time... lets say for a football... there's always a miss shot to the goal.. yet.. there's also winning... and losing team.. but to people who experience it themselves.. not reaching the target.. or simply letting down people's hope... is the greatest failure... i realize it now.. because today.. it just happen to me..
it just ordinary routine which always ended with success.. but.. contrary during the time for test.. it just when wrong.. i couldn't blame the external reason for it.. i couldn't blame the surrounding..
since others companion also in the same situation.. blaming is only a reason to justify thing.. and make myself a little comfortable.. deep inside.. it's clear when you're fail.. you fail.. that's no doubt about it... and why I'm the one who taste the taste of failure.. is just simply because .. i am the chosen one to carry a bad luck for today.. and seeing others pass.. bring me some joy.. at least.. others feel happy... he he.. but the fact is... in such a way of success.. there's always a room for failure.. it's something impossible to separate.. in that matter.. it might cause a debt to someone which equal to a guilt inside him..
thank god.. thanks... for the chance you gave.. it's a hard success.. yet.. success is success... but this success is not something i can celebrate..
because it summon a guilt.. it summon.. a debt... for me to put a burden to someone...
for me to cause such unreasonable act.. this feeling is not easy to erase.... it is a big as my sense of gratitude... thanks again.. because there are good peoples who care for this bad bad boy.. thanks god.. thanks.. buddy... thanks friend...
~success~
is it a success..
when it's only a letters jot on the paper
is it a success when it's only a certificate
when it come to the real deal..
you won't make it...
you're not qualify..
although black and white proved otherwise..
you know it yourself..
better than anyone else..
success doesn't need black and white.
it doesn't need proved..
it just need you..
you try your best.. that's a success..
you know you can do it... that's a success
you confident you can make it.. that's a success
you never give up.. that's a success..
you want to improve.. that's a success..
and.. by holding to this word..
i wont look back anymore..
we must move on..
to be more successful than before"
why today is the the day to remember.. because today.. my long plain life gain a roller coaster track.. it's up and down.. and it's more interesting than ever... because a failure... i achieved a success.. and to know that.. there are good people all around me... make me feel how lucky i am to live in this world.. and for their sake... i will do my best to return their favour and for... me... move on... march on... being stuck in this spot wont bring you out from guilt...
it'll buried you with darkness.. look at the bright side.. and smile for the gift that god gave you..
smile for the truth.. smile for the fact that.. each day is a new experience..
in this post.. i want to say thanks to these people.....
Abg Azam, for all the thing.. you help me a lot.. i don't know how to repay you... only god can do that.. and i pray to god.. i hope i can return you the favour.. you are the greatest person i ever made.. thanks
Kak Nora... thanks.. you teah me a lot... and sorry.. i let you down.. i'm ashame of myself... thank for the comitment... the dedication... the spirit... the knowledge... the mumbling hahaha... the fun.. thanks..
PakCik Tukang kebun...Mr Gardener.. sorry my dear sir.. i don't know your name.. but there are a lot of useful advice you gave me.... thanks for the counsel.. you increase my moral after superb falling down..
thanks...
Pakcik Orang Brunei.. since he look like brunei people.. and sorry don't know his name.. thanks.. you bring me back from sorrow... it just good to look on the bright side... and thanks for your advice.. it's give me courage to fight the nervous...
to my buddy Khyru and Najib... you doing great today.. i'm happy for you.. seriously and sincerely.. i do... thanks for being here with me today... you guys cheer me up.. thanks buddy....
hahahaha... hey holiday wait dude.. lets go home... next sem? how about each of us rent a car.. and i race you to Pekan.. hey remember the speed limits.. don't go far beyond 60km/h.. ha ha..
thanks everyone... i owe you much... you are the greatest...
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Saturday april 19th : evening
since the the day i was born.. i never really taste... or know what freedom really is..
even up untill now.. even till today.. for this recent day...
and to my luck i guess... to my fortune it is... that i heard a story about this unfortunate tiny
little frog...
for a creature which can swim... for a creature who's water is their life... for a creature... like this
trap in a well.. in the bottom of the well.. what do you think it really want? since it love to swim..
and trape in a small area.. filled with water.. i thought.. it love to swim in a large pond..
perhaps.. in.. the lake.. in the river.. where it suppose to live...because.. of the fact we know that..
frog live there.. so it need to be there... back in the river..back in the wetland
but imagine this.. imagine this.. where you grow up.. in the bottom of the well.. since this is a frog..
you don't have a parent.. who can tell you about the river.. the lake.. for the place where you are born.. where you were grown.. live.. you don't even heard about the beautiful lake..
this beautiful river... for that... how can you wish for a living there.. since it's not
something you can look at.. you never look at.. you don't know how to imagine.. because
no one told you about it.. you probably don't know the meaning of the word.. "river" ..
"lake" .... what place does it wanna be at? it's something it can look.. it something..
that it can comprehend.... to it.. to it only.. this is what it think freedom.. or atleast feel..
the place is.. the sky...
imagine growing up in a well.. the only window you have.. is the one above.. the only change you can see.. is the moving cloud.. the flying bird... and a bucket fall down.. almost hit you..
what if this well.. is..an old one..abandon.. where no one is using it anymore? how lonely your life will be.. as all your surrounding are dead as a stone.. what living is the sky above you..
watching the sky each day.. envy of the bird who can fly freely.. as for you.. no matter how.. far
you can jump.. you only bump into the wall.. because you are the one who trap.. it's you
who really understand what freedom really mean.. how it really taste..
looking at the sky everyday from the bottom of the well.. create a desire.. desire to reach the sky.. a wish to touch the sky.. a vision.. a mision.. a path for life.. to seek out freedom..
to live at the world.. where before this.. is only a view from a deep bottom..
now.. it's something.. to become a reality..
for the sky.. it try to go out from the well.. it will have its freedom
and to me.. no matter wether this unlucky frog success or not (honestly i do wish it can go out from the well)... it have a purpose for its life..
i kinda jealous of it.. hehehe.. since i can't comprehend its freedom.. i only know definition of it..
i can't feel the joy if it was free as it feel it itself... as for that... i will find my own freedom.. as for that... i will find my own way... a freedom where i really understand.. a freedom where.. i really know its sweetness..
even up untill now.. even till today.. for this recent day...
and to my luck i guess... to my fortune it is... that i heard a story about this unfortunate tiny
little frog...
for a creature which can swim... for a creature who's water is their life... for a creature... like this
trap in a well.. in the bottom of the well.. what do you think it really want? since it love to swim..
and trape in a small area.. filled with water.. i thought.. it love to swim in a large pond..
perhaps.. in.. the lake.. in the river.. where it suppose to live...because.. of the fact we know that..
frog live there.. so it need to be there... back in the river..back in the wetland
but imagine this.. imagine this.. where you grow up.. in the bottom of the well.. since this is a frog..
you don't have a parent.. who can tell you about the river.. the lake.. for the place where you are born.. where you were grown.. live.. you don't even heard about the beautiful lake..
this beautiful river... for that... how can you wish for a living there.. since it's not
something you can look at.. you never look at.. you don't know how to imagine.. because
no one told you about it.. you probably don't know the meaning of the word.. "river" ..
"lake" .... what place does it wanna be at? it's something it can look.. it something..
that it can comprehend.... to it.. to it only.. this is what it think freedom.. or atleast feel..
the place is.. the sky...
imagine growing up in a well.. the only window you have.. is the one above.. the only change you can see.. is the moving cloud.. the flying bird... and a bucket fall down.. almost hit you..
what if this well.. is..an old one..abandon.. where no one is using it anymore? how lonely your life will be.. as all your surrounding are dead as a stone.. what living is the sky above you..
watching the sky each day.. envy of the bird who can fly freely.. as for you.. no matter how.. far
you can jump.. you only bump into the wall.. because you are the one who trap.. it's you
who really understand what freedom really mean.. how it really taste..
looking at the sky everyday from the bottom of the well.. create a desire.. desire to reach the sky.. a wish to touch the sky.. a vision.. a mision.. a path for life.. to seek out freedom..
to live at the world.. where before this.. is only a view from a deep bottom..
now.. it's something.. to become a reality..
for the sky.. it try to go out from the well.. it will have its freedom
and to me.. no matter wether this unlucky frog success or not (honestly i do wish it can go out from the well)... it have a purpose for its life..
i kinda jealous of it.. hehehe.. since i can't comprehend its freedom.. i only know definition of it..
i can't feel the joy if it was free as it feel it itself... as for that... i will find my own freedom.. as for that... i will find my own way... a freedom where i really understand.. a freedom where.. i really know its sweetness..
~future~
a path..
a path it is yours
a path where no one order you to walk on it..
it's a path where you walk because you choose to walk on..
it's a path that's not others make it..
it's a path where you are its creator..
it's something that is not because of you want..
is not because of your need...
it is because of your dream.. and you believe..
it is your happiness...
it is your satisfaction...
it is your freedom..
and for this reason..
isn't reaching this future..
are more meaningful..
a path..
a path it is yours
a path where no one order you to walk on it..
it's a path where you walk because you choose to walk on..
it's a path that's not others make it..
it's a path where you are its creator..
it's something that is not because of you want..
is not because of your need...
it is because of your dream.. and you believe..
it is your happiness...
it is your satisfaction...
it is your freedom..
and for this reason..
isn't reaching this future..
are more meaningful..
Monday, April 14, 2008
monday april 14th
i'm in the middle of installing something now.. it's long-waited game...i never play it before..
and now is the chance.. hail need for speed underground..
anyway.. i just finish warhammer soulstorm campaign.. playing as adepta sororitas... add with some mods.. finishing the game kinda easy.. so.. i guess i'm not playing fair.. anyway.. i love the way i play it..
so.. it's for this self satisfaction only.. next mission.. finish the game as necron..
yeah.. if it come to games... it's clear that.. some might don;t get what i'm just mumbling here..
for that.. please accept my appology as this the only think i can offer to you..
well in this week.. there're a lot of things happen.. but.. i guess my world still move kinda slow..
~things happen~
some of of the test result just ocme out.. some make me smile..
our cafe get serious on hygene now... kinda relief to hear that but.. why take action now..
for all that i remember... it always dirty..
there's a person who.. i guess being upset.. i don't know it's because of me or something else..
but i miss the chat.. missing this and that.. kinda make me.. so not comfortable.. guilty feeling
start to seep in.. i hope she doing just fine..
i still searchig for solidwork 2004 or 2003 installer.... or.. a crack for cosmos 2007.. i know..
i'm using the software illegally... but since getting original one is hard and expensive..
it left me with no option.. haha.
hurm... seems that.. installing this game quite frustrating.. if it goes for second times... there is an error.. so.. i re-intall it.. perhaps... they'll be a okay...
about this perosn i mention before... the condition i'm feeling now.. is so so so.. full of questionaire..
i start to think that.. for sure it's my fault for her to act such way.. shame of me shame of me..
~guilt~
something is not entertaining
for most.. it makes you wonder..
how bad person you are...
sometime it left you thinking
how can we hurt such inocent heart
and now is the chance.. hail need for speed underground..
anyway.. i just finish warhammer soulstorm campaign.. playing as adepta sororitas... add with some mods.. finishing the game kinda easy.. so.. i guess i'm not playing fair.. anyway.. i love the way i play it..
so.. it's for this self satisfaction only.. next mission.. finish the game as necron..
yeah.. if it come to games... it's clear that.. some might don;t get what i'm just mumbling here..
for that.. please accept my appology as this the only think i can offer to you..
well in this week.. there're a lot of things happen.. but.. i guess my world still move kinda slow..
~things happen~
some of of the test result just ocme out.. some make me smile..
our cafe get serious on hygene now... kinda relief to hear that but.. why take action now..
for all that i remember... it always dirty..
there's a person who.. i guess being upset.. i don't know it's because of me or something else..
but i miss the chat.. missing this and that.. kinda make me.. so not comfortable.. guilty feeling
start to seep in.. i hope she doing just fine..
i still searchig for solidwork 2004 or 2003 installer.... or.. a crack for cosmos 2007.. i know..
i'm using the software illegally... but since getting original one is hard and expensive..
it left me with no option.. haha.
hurm... seems that.. installing this game quite frustrating.. if it goes for second times... there is an error.. so.. i re-intall it.. perhaps... they'll be a okay...
about this perosn i mention before... the condition i'm feeling now.. is so so so.. full of questionaire..
i start to think that.. for sure it's my fault for her to act such way.. shame of me shame of me..
~guilt~
something is not entertaining
for most.. it makes you wonder..
how bad person you are...
sometime it left you thinking
how can we hurt such inocent heart
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